I am to believe that all achieved is beneficial.
Who am I to benefit the goods that God has bestowed unto me.
Pay it forward in ways and varieties...
Then the unseen is what is given to me.
The fight, the struggle and the maintenance is what produces heart;
and faith is the sister of karma.
Do I really think I do this all on my own?
I never walk alone...
Steady hand but never being able to draw a straight line.
Am I lying? No!
Do the days bring back days of the day's I felt like dying?
No!
I cherish life like the deserts love the rain,
like passion and pain co-exist and meet at the prelude to exist.
...and this is where I meet my heart's lover.
Took some time to be discovered---kicking and screaming
you could not have what I promised to my one true lover.
Bring me back to life and give me back my lungs to breath...
no more rolling tree's and sitting for hours laughing and potentially
losing all that is important to me.
Take me where the treasured moments are.
Far from this mental in the dark.
Closer to that internal spark.
I wanted to gift you the most innocent part of me.
The untouched version of me.
The intimate, intellectual, un-bulletproofed me.
For a moment I fought the me who denied the love you we're gifting.
I could not comprehend how one person could love until wits end.
Until I met you and you brought the main subject and the main character to life...
reminding me of how special I am in real life, mother and wife.
....end of thought! =)
