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"Soul Low" aka Solo
by Lovinia Angela Rodriguez on Wednesday, December 8, 2010 at 9:38pm

Here goes nothing,



A drop of the clear salty saline solution secreted by the lacrimal glands

is the theme of today's emotion and the subject at hand.



I have no shame in saying I've cried oceans...

A river is too small for the pain of it all.



I realize I hurt so bad

because I love so hard.



I love so hard

because I need it bad.



Bad, is never good...

and well something good is not always good for you.



My eyes are swollen shut and my ears are ringing...

Heart pounding, soul alone...yea so alone...soul low...I want to live solo.



I have never been the one to let certain things bury me...

but even my heart is scared of me, my minds eyes...

that wisdom that lurks inside.

Dark and uneasy to please...feed me knowledge

and water me with tears.

Watch me grow...after all these years...

I want to be solo...but right now my soul is low.



I see the places I've been

familiar with the places I need to be.

phantasmal and cosmic energy...

Displaced again because of earthly tragedies.

Unhealthy thoughts ravish me to replace...

the peaceful feeling you pretended to gift me.



Now I rather take the pain which is the truth,

use it, flip it, grow and create something the

whole world can habituate...



Your emotions are still local.

The more I become vocal

the less you become heard.

The more I hear you,

the less I care to be near you.

The you I use to love

I could care less to be near you.

Careless you with no Lovey...

I can no longer hear you...

...look around I am no where near you!